She pondered in her heart

Dear me (a few years from now),

I have known you since the day you have come in to being and no other human person knows you the way I have known you. In fact the more I live the more I realise how similar you are to mum. When I look at her of course I feel so proud to be her daughter but I also know she can, once in a while take a chill pill, but I dare not say it to her. Hence today as I sit here I feel this urge to write to you for I know how you will love to read this one fine day and read it with happy tears. You will be so grateful that I left you this letter for I will no longer be with you in a certain way. Let me not keep you longer and let you in to my thoughts here.

Be gentle with yourself

Yes, be gentle with yourself. You are a kind and sensitive soul. You always know what the others need. You sense the need of the hour so well and give all that you have. But it is never late to start being gentle with yourself. Don’t be so scrupulous. You can make mistakes and that is absolutely fine. No your husband and son are not judging you. So don’t be so hard on yourself. Be gentle with your hands, your feet, your heart. Take care of yourself like the way you take care of your loved ones.

Love before you speak

You love to speak, but now Love and then speak. You mean well but the tongue can be so harsh at times. Love, for love is patient, love is kind. Let your love for people fill your heart and your speech. Let them hear love in your words. And no, this is not going to be difficult for you, so go on and love with all your heart.

Worry not about what will be

For it will be the way it has to be … and worrying will not change the way it is. I know how worry seems like second nature to you, but it will all be alright. See how you made it this far and when you look back don’t you see it all works well in the end

The house will be messy hug him anyway

Your husband and son are of greater value than the house you live in. I know how much you prefer a clean house over peace of mind, the house won’t feel a thing but your family will remember you for your love and kindness – hug them anyway and always. You have no idea how much they appreciate all that you do for them and the house. So smile and love on.

Pick the phone and make that call

I know you care. You mean good for the other, but don’t let this good be buried for another day. You know there may not be another day for so many people. Hence when you think of a loved one, whisper a prayer and pick that phone and call them. Your call may just be the one thing they need to lift their mood and make their day. Don’t shy away from showing the love that has been given so freely to you. So many have already gone before you, you can be the hope for so many around, so go make it count.

Friends you may not have but life will still be this beautiful

Since you are me a few years from now, I know you will still be sitting with a cup of tea late in the evening several days and actually counting whom you can count on. You may find a few too but none who knows you the way you would wish people to know you. Don’t let this dishearten you. Life is still beautiful and amazing to live, just go out of yourself and be the person God has called you to be. Do not be afraid to give in full measure, love deeply and live passionately.

Say no, when you mean no

I hope you may not need this, but if you still do then I must tell you – go ahead and say no when you mean a no. You need not please any one any more. And no people are not thinking about things as deeply as you are nor do they feel as much as you do. So relax it is all good. Say no to the toxins and yes to yourself.

I hope you will look back one day and be so proud of yourself.

me
Mother and daughter, one becomes the other
Mother and daughter, one becomes the other

This blog post is a part of #Womensdayblogparty. I’d like to thank Priya for introducing me. Read her post for this blog party here https://priyreflects.wordpress.com/2018/03/05/banons-conundrum/

Also do go to my friend Sagarika’s blog post on https://sagarikapodder.wordpress.com to read her perspective on the topic.

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Period Blog 1

Cloth has always inspired me in different ways. I am a huge fan of all things cotton. I started off on my period journey with cloth. Back then it was cloth that mum made for me to use on those days. It was always the softest cloth. Using cloth meant discipline, though I am a lover of routine and discipline as a teenager I desired that which I could not afford – the disposable sanitary pads. For 11 long years I used the disposable pads, initially by saving up every rupee I had or buying the very basic disposable pads available. But soon enough I read about cloth pads, advanced cloth diapers for babies and menstrual cups. I realized the irreplaceable damage that I was doing and the amount of waste being generated. I knew this had to stop.

In the year 2014 – 2015 I made the switch and since then there has been no turning back. I have begun to love my menstrual cycle, have had lesser painful periods – more so because now I do not detest rather embrace myself as a woman. I purchased 3 panty liners, 7 night pads and at least 20 day pads – I know that is a lot. Back then when I started I wanted to use cloth all through my periods, but I was not satisfied and looked for more. That is when I found out about the menstrual cups. The very next month I moved to the cup and now I am a crazy fan of the cup. Periods no longer scare me nor trouble me. I embrace it knowing fully well my worth as a woman and how this makes me unique.

Recently I had a baby and have been away from periods for 16 months. I want to write here how I have eagerly waited for my periods to return. I wanted to use the menstrual cup once again. Day 1 of the period was good with very slight leaks and I thought to myself … have I forgotten how to insert the cup already? But that was just day one, by the end of the day I found myself and there I was using it without any more leaks – Perfect from day 2! It’s been an exciting journey and am eager to get everyone I know to make the switch. To switch not only to cloth pads but also to reusable diapers. That in another post another day.

Happy switching.